Not sure if it is mid-life crisis or a disease - but it sure feels like both!!! Since I am now on the wrong side of 25 - the world is different - everything I like and want to do - is what an amateur girl would die for and everything I should like and am expected to do - well' I'm not there yet.
From expressions to feelings to reactions and thoughts... i feel torn between what I had in the past and what the future may behold. Does everyone really already know what they want from their future? 5 years down the lane? 10 years from today??? Hell .. I don't think I know what I want from today. ... I have been going with the flow and wait for life to happen to me - but hmm maybe not .. something amazing, something out of the world, something awe striking... none of that has happened since I don't know when ..!
I know like every girl - I think the world rotates around me and that's how it is always supposed to be - but I took a break, waited for things to happened on their own and not make them rotate just because nothing I wanted them do...!
So here I am again - shifting gears where I want to look at things I can do make me awe struck - but it is again like PLAN, TAKE EFFORT, STEP UP! Is this what life is about?
Was it not supposed to be like the ROLLER COASTER - which runs on it own?
Were there not supposed to be the waves which keep rushing towards the store and bring new things?
Who switched off my roller coaster, what happened to the tides?
I have been ready to ride, ready to fly, ready to run, ready to jump off - where did the spark go?
When will life happen to me - again?
From expressions to feelings to reactions and thoughts... i feel torn between what I had in the past and what the future may behold. Does everyone really already know what they want from their future? 5 years down the lane? 10 years from today??? Hell .. I don't think I know what I want from today. ... I have been going with the flow and wait for life to happen to me - but hmm maybe not .. something amazing, something out of the world, something awe striking... none of that has happened since I don't know when ..!
I know like every girl - I think the world rotates around me and that's how it is always supposed to be - but I took a break, waited for things to happened on their own and not make them rotate just because nothing I wanted them do...!
So here I am again - shifting gears where I want to look at things I can do make me awe struck - but it is again like PLAN, TAKE EFFORT, STEP UP! Is this what life is about?
Was it not supposed to be like the ROLLER COASTER - which runs on it own?
Were there not supposed to be the waves which keep rushing towards the store and bring new things?
Who switched off my roller coaster, what happened to the tides?
I have been ready to ride, ready to fly, ready to run, ready to jump off - where did the spark go?
When will life happen to me - again?
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