I know I am alive ..........!!!

Pheww who knew an asthmatic child with issues even running for 2 mins will some day enjoy sustaining 1 hour of intense CARDIO activity!!

Yay me!! I love it when I feel the pain in my arms, the sore muscles in my thighs, the sweat in my hair, the drops tricking down my forehead, the wet shirt clinging on ...showing off my future figure...!! Aaahaa Aahaa...!!

Well people say its really bad to be overly in LOVE with the Love of your body! But I don't think its like that...

It's like - If I do something good for my body - It keeps me mentally healthy, physically healthy and then it makes me do well in the other areas of my daily life! Like my WORK! I pay attention to other things - have better coordination -- almost like I get new ideas while focusing on my heartbeat during an intense exercise session!

And Guess what YOGA makes it all cool off!! It's like WOW!

What's more - It takes the GUILT off - Guilt of Over-eating, Over-Drinking, Carelessness ... OMG the benefits are just never ending! :)

Keep Living Keep Strong!

Betrayal

If one feeling which I wish God had not given me is Betrayal - the emotion so strong, the force so piercing, the pain so excruciating - it questions the relationships I care and live to foster everyday. From a simple, fearful, restricted being, I accepted the challenge to extrovert myself, face the world with a smile and build the strength to face the sarcasm and reply back with equal intensity.

Little did I know that these Betrayals can never be defeated -

- Betrayed by the innocence of childhood I forced myself to mature

- Betrayed by good luck I endeavor hard work & positive attitude

- Betrayed by the freedom of choices I pushed hard to assert independence

- Betrayed by the support of friends I hunt strength in accomplishments

- Betrayed by the dreams of sovereignty I strive for excellence

- Betrayed by the terms of endearment I rely on partnership

- Betrayed by the trust, devotion and dedication on my partnership all that I star myself on falls apart like a tornado tearing apart the foundations of my existence.

I have been trying not to give up and believe in the choices I have made but one after another the blows of betrayal sever through my heart, dampen my spirit and deplore my soul.

Every time I lighten my lamp of Hope and Pray for it to stay alight while I dig my path towards a better future but swish comes the gust of Betrayal - leaving behind darkness in my fake world of Happiness - Faith is now so fearful, that it hides in the cracks of darkness and I stand lost, alone in the tornado of Betrayal.....

From The Nine Insights

An unconscious competition for energy underlies all conflicts. By dominating or manipulating others, we get the extra energy we think we need. Sure, it feels good - but both parties are damaged in the conflict.

The key to overcoming conflict in the world is the mystical experience, which is available to everyone. To nurture the mystical and build your energy, allow yourself to be filled with a sense of love.

Childhood traumas block our ability to fully experience the mystical. All humans, because of their upbringing, tend toward one of four control dramas:

• Intimidators steal energy from others by threat.
• Interrogators steal it by judging and questioning.
• Aloof people attract attention (and energy) to themselves by playing coy.
• Poor me's make us feel guilty and responsible for them.

Become aware of the family dynamics that created your control drama and you can focus on your essential question, which is how to make of your life a higher- level synthesis of your parents' lives.

Once cleared of traumas, you can build energy through contemplation and meditation, focus on you basic life question, and start riding a steady stream of intuitions, dreams, and synchronistic coincidences, all guiding you in the direction of your own evolution and transformation.

That evolution can't be done alone, so begin to practice the new "Interpersonal Ethic" by uplifting those who cross your path. Talk to people who make spontaneous eye contact with you. Avoid co-dependent relationships. Be there for people. Call attention to other people's control dramas. In groups, speak when the spirit (instead of the ego) moves you.

Our purpose here is to evolve beyond this plane. Fewer people (a result of reproductive abstinence) and more old-growth forests will help us to sustain our energy and accelerate our evolution. Technology will do most of our work for us. As we begin to value spiritual insight more and more, we will pay those who bring it to us, and this will eventually replace the market economy and our need for paid employment. We can connect to God's energy in such a way that we will eventually become beings of light, and walk straight into heaven.

The Nine Insights
by James Redfield

I'm addicted & I just can't get enough!!!

Boy I think about it every night and day
I'm addicted wanna jump inside your love
I wouldn't wanna have it any other way
I'm addicted and I just can't get enough

I just can't get enough
I just can't get enough
I just can't get enough
I just can't get enough

When we dream about dreams ....

"it's when we want to be crazy and live our life the way we dreamed about it when we were kids!"

It's when at every moment you feel like are you doing what you were really meant to be doing?

Is this why you were made ?

Is this your destiny, your goal, your passion?

Is this really what you'd rather be doing right now?

Well may be we had a free will when our parents really tried hard to align us .. wonder what would have happened if I had never obeyed them!! :D I'm happy I did - but am I really??

This is a silly quote flooding over social networking sites but somewhere it really mocks the hell out of our childhood dreams:

"How do you expect kids to listen to their parents when Tarzan lives half naked, Cinderella comes home at midnight, Pinocchio lies all the time, Aladdin is the king of thieves, Batman drives at 200 mph, Sleeping Beauty is lazy, Alice ate anything that strangers gave her and Snow White lives with 7 guys!"

I wish and pray when SimPunni have kids -- They don't forget to be like one :)

How to avoid your fears from within to across on your face!

When conditions set the boundaries of your life, when the path forward needs to be navigated through the restrictions of "If's" & "But's", when you thought you could have gotten more and want to get more out of where you are now and quick "But" somehow its not the best move to disrupt all that you have settled in for after years of struggle for stabilization.

What to do then??

Question/s which lie in front of me today are -

• How not to show your vulnerability?
• How not to come up as being needy?

We all need something and at this stage we approach people with a purpose in mind, making new friends is secondary; now that this is clear what lies in front is challenge of mastering the act of faking the kindness and patience of portraying oneself as Awe-inspiring and thus making the person provide you with what you need without you asking for it!

And that's how we "Adults" complicate life!

Wiki How to Help - http://www.wikihow.com/Avoid-Coming-Across-As-Needy

This Tips section of this page mentioned above is awesome, an I need a constant reminder to stay on track with life :)

The only way to 'not come across needy' is to ensure you are confident within yourself.

My Punni didn't get Monica's 7 7 7 thing!!!

OMG possibly one of the best S** jokes of FRIENDS -- at least for me!! :D

When my diet went to HELL again! :D

:D

Ohh well guilty pleasures!! Food brings happiness -- Food gets satisfaction -- I love Eating! :D

It was Tini's last week of Summer Funk and we had tojust ea our hearts out and that's exactly wha we did! :)

Master Cleanse Diet Day 4,5,6,7

Ok so here we go again -- I ate in the evening of my 4th & 6th day!! :(

29th July was Amgen's Chilifest -- hmm I was doing really good until Punit & Tini came over for the fair and we had to have a gala time - and how can it be without the Chili! :D Well on the good part - I did not really HOG! :)

I was good on Saturday and was back on the diet strictly , but Sunday was bad -- as I got really dizzy with a constant headache all day -- "Not to make the matters worse for the whole coming work week" is what my brain said and I has the lentil curry I made for Lunch with 1 tortilla.

Thus Monday, 1st of August went well and here we are on the 2nd August, Tuesday :)

I am still steadily losing - which is good - down to 130 pounds in 7 days - a pound a day! Hope to maintain this "at least" by the end of this week :)

Master Cleanse Diet Day #3

Started with two green tea fat burners -- I know my metabolism is gonna die down -- in office at the cafe with my lemonade ready!!

Planning for half hour elliptical followed by a YOGA class or something today! :D

Let's do it baby! Ohh Yeaahh!!

BTW --- I am down to 132.2 pounds today -- hope to be back to 130 pounds by end of week!

Master Cleanse Diet Day #2

2 oranges - one bottle of lemonade with red pepper and some maple syrup!

Excercise - 1/2 hour spinning and 1/2 hour crunches, dumbbell raises, pushups etc.

I am feeling a low in mood and a bit drained out today! :( Will keep it up and keep it going though!

Yay Weight Loss! Duhhh! LOL --> but I have to get this done!

Master Cleanse Diet Day #1

Alright, here it is -- I guess my 3rd attempt at successfully completing this after a downfall on fitness end. I haven't been regular at my workouts since over 3 months -- enjoying the SUMMER 2011 thoroughly and now depressed with the ~15 pound weight gain (124 to 137) !!!!!!!!!

Alright - So I have had an apple since morning - with Hoodia (2 TbSpoon)

Exercise - 20 mins interval running & 1 hour Pilates Stand up on mats :)

Feeling Good :)

My Dukan Diary

Freak - O - nomics

Fact #1: People respond to incentives (Incentives matter)

If you figure out the incentives and what drives them then you should be able to guess how they are going to behave. (or actually how do you want them to behave)

Fact #2: If you are not Cheating, you are not Trying!

Fact #3: Pure Corruption; corruption exists everywhere and the only way to control it for a while is by throwing some Sunlight as Sunlight is the best disinfectant.

Fact #4: Love does wonders but lure of incentives gets the loved ones to do what we want!! Learn the idea of designing the incentives.

Fact #5: The only way to ruin your image is by taking sides and fights. Incentives let us seek the truth and not have an agenda.

Perception

Perception, sense, formation of a concept is a too technical word but when applied to self -- it is exponentially complicated.

How I perceive others and how do they perceive me, what I think is the best way to deliver thoughts and what they think is the best way to conceive words. Simple words if expressed in a high pitched tone may be achieved as excitement, attitude, over-powering, over smart or RUDE!!

Well, I haven't been thrown that word in the ever .. I mean EVER .. and it really HURT .. Not sure how bad .. but it really did pierce through and hurt my heart!

As much as I like being a part of the group, I don't like losing my individuality. And the group loses its charm when there are some who DIVIDE and Try to RULE! :X Some people just have that evil charm and loud voice to take over people' mind and get themselves to be notices by all - may their talk be interesting or not, funny or not, smart or not but it is definitely biased. Normally people with average Social IQ's are not best at detecting such cases and thus fall victim to hurtful images as people backbite and make bad perceptions of them.

I know I have been involved in doing that a lot and would now take a check before saying anything behind anyone's back! :)

LESSON LEARNT -

• Try to control and eventually STOP talking behind people's back in PUBLIC! :P
• STOP creating negative notions about people.
• IGNORE and STAY away from negative wavelengths of other "Socially" tricky people.

Self Pity

I am writing this post after a long long gap and not sure aht made me take this long gap...

Recently, I know I have been slacking

pushing off work

procrastinating things...

Nothing keeps me up beat-- Pictures, events, hang outs nothing seems to make me happy ...

With the fear of losing it all - I wake up every day and drag myself to work and come back home , waste time in front of the TV and sleep

Not sure why but seems like this has become the norm and i don;t want myself to jump out of it -- this is not ME!

I have a lot of potential -- I can handle a lot of things at one time , I have amazing interests and wonderful imagination and proper people skills to influence them all and have FUN :)

but Suddenly I have landed in this position where all I have been doing in pitying myself! Feeling Sorry for myself ... is that true? Should this how it should be? NO RIGHT!!

I know -- but I need help in coming out of this mode -- my interests are getting short lived day by day -- I like doing stuff-- overcome it and then go back to slacking -- What is my passion!!! Trying new things all the time cannot be a Passion!! Or maybe it can be??