Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Betrayal

If one feeling which I wish God had not given me is Betrayal - the emotion so strong, the force so piercing, the pain so excruciating - it questions the relationships I care and live to foster everyday. From a simple, fearful, restricted being, I accepted the challenge to extrovert myself, face the world with a smile and build the strength to face the sarcasm and reply back with equal intensity.

Little did I know that these Betrayals can never be defeated -
- Betrayed by the innocence of childhood I forced myself to mature
- Betrayed by good luck I endeavor hard work & positive attitude
- Betrayed by the freedom of choices I pushed hard to assert independence
- Betrayed by the support of friends I hunt strength in accomplishments
- Betrayed by the dreams of sovereignty I strive for excellence
- Betrayed by the terms of endearment I rely on partnership
- Betrayed by the trust, devotion and dedication on my partnership all that I star myself on falls apart like a tornado tearing apart the foundations of my existence.

I have been trying not to give up and believe in the choices I have made but one after another the blows of betrayal sever through my heart, dampen my spirit and deplore my soul.
Every time I lighten my lamp of Hope and Pray for it to stay alight while I dig my path towards a better future but swish comes the gust of Betrayal - leaving behind darkness in my fake world of Happiness - Faith is now so fearful, that it hides in the cracks of darkness and I stand lost, alone in the tornado of Betrayal.....